Travel Life With Vân

What if coming back was a mistake ? What if I needed to pull through to see the light ? What if I missed out on the opportunity of my life ?

I am back in Caloundra !

While looking for a job in Melbourne and being the thrifty young woman that I am, I ended up having no money left. Not even savings.

Which was a hard one for me. So hard that I actually considered either asking on the streets for money or do this fake receptionist gig. I suddenly saw a lot of homeless people out there and thought, I’ll be there with you guys in no time ! Funny how we see the things we are use to in a different light when situations shift for us, not even going to wonder why.

I was close to be broke. Again. It was at that point where I booked 4 nights in a hostel without realizing it was a dump. Like a real dump. I suspected the place was not going to be awesome considering the price for the night and comparing to the other awful backpackers I was previously in.

Nevertheless, I would not have expected this. Looking back, my stay in Melbourne had exactly this general vibe. I would have never expected this.

I was in a 4 beds dorm, better than the 14 beds of the previous hostel where because of the end of the year festivities, there were a lot of shagging going on, you would think. But I was the only female. That is not it. When I walked in to go to sleep, the guy on the top of my bunk bed was already asleep. At least I though so. When he turned around and saw me for less than a minute, it didn’t took him long after I was settle in my bed to start… pleasuring himself.

I was mortified ! Praying God for the guy to not think about me while doing this. Especially since the guy… was a homeless dude ! That’s right. You read me. It wasn’t because of the blink of your eyes. So let’s just leave it at that.

So… I had to get out of there on the second night giving the fact that I didn’t feel safe there anymore. I hopped back on the plane and flew back to the beautiful Sunshine Coast, where I could be in a female dorm, cleaning for my accommodation and being able to maybe do some farm jobs to afford food again.

On my way to the airport, I received an email. A legit company was interested in meeting me as soon as possible. They finally started to have my resume on their desk.

The last penny of my wallet was spent on my way back to safety net.

So I left.

Is it going backwards to go back to what you know ?

Within two days back on the Queensland land, I received 2 more emails with people wanting to meet me in Melbourne.

Because I believe that mourning is a privilege for rich people, I kept on focusing on what Jade told me the other day when I was so lost with myself. And I was clearly losing it.

Everything is going to sort itself out. It was just not meant to be. You will have the opportunity that is design for you.

There is no need to waste your time with « what ifs ». Because we will never get the answers we are looking for in those scenarios. We don’t need to waste time on this kind of frustration. We don’t need to hold on to this bitterness. We need to keep on going and growing.

Destiny will settles itself out and you just have to find your own way to success, one step at the time.

Because what if I didn’t get that opportunity at that right time for a reason ? Let me refrase, for the right reason ? What if it was my path to go and succeed that way, because I had to feel that shame, that disappointment, that frustration to dial back down my ego and make me act clearly in the pursuit of my dreams ?

I came to Australia to write. And that’s what I am going to do.

Life will figure itself out eventually. We need time to see the bigger picture and understand why we went through what we went through to come to where we are or where we will be. We will become the greatest version of ourselves. Our role is to keep working the hardest we can and have faith.

We all just need to have faith.